SPN: Sam and Dean drabble

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"Hey, Sam," Dean says, apropos of nothing. "Your time at Stanford, do you think— Was it worth it?" He asks with genuine curiosity, no trace of anger.

Sam supposes his more recent transgressions overshadow going off to college. "I was happy there. It felt normal." Safe. "But ultimately, no. It wasn't worth Jess dying." Wasn't worth turning his back on his family.

"But she loved you," Dean says.

"Yeah." Sam nods. "She did."

Dean looks down, rubs the back of his neck. "Yeah," he says, mostly to himself. "What was that like?"

Sam has no idea how to answer that.

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